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all of this pain
all the emotions i dont show
my true feelings
locked down so low

in the botton of my heart
locked up so long
no real emotions
there all gone

so please forgive me
if i seem so depressed
im never happy
my minds a mess

sitting alone
hoping that someone will come
save me from all this
no longer feel numb

all of this pain
all the emotions i dont show
my true feelings
locked down so low

I feel alone.
Seperate from others.
Suffering from a broken heart.
I cry.

I have friends.
They care for me.
But their too busy with their lives.
Am I selfish?

I stand in the highwall not caring.
I watch my life pass by in blurrs.
Turning my head just looking around.
I bleed.

My heart bleeds.
I feel so alone.
I watch people hug and kiss.
I want.

I try to get noticed.
I scream at the top of my lungs.
No one notices.
I fall.

I curl up in fetal position in the middle of the floor.
I tug my hair gently to see if I'm still alive.
I claw at my skin to bleed more.
I disappear.

My life keeps on going.
But I dont.
I walk like

AloneHe lies alone on his bed.
No one there to love him, to want him, to need him.
A tear roles down his cheek.
For he has noticed.
That there is no one there to
to love him, to want him, to need him.

AloneIt was eight or nine years ago
My parents got into a fight
I was completely left outside
Unnoticed by others
Alone I sat
In the dark windy night
I stood up into the darkened sky
And counted the little shiny stars
The full moon glowed above me
Comforted me in its warmth's shadow
I faintly smiled to myself
And lowered my head down
Tiny drops of rain fell from my face
And so the darkness became my only friend
It filled my heart with more emptiness
It crawled through my skin and dug a hole inside of me
It was then; I first felt the loneliness of being alone
It was then; I found the joy in this gifted emotion
It was then; I cheri

BrokenI can’t breathe
I want to but no air comes out
I want to speak but no words come out
Why do I feel... hurt?

I feel betray
I feel like love had forgotten me
Like God only help those who have love

My heart hurts
My heart feels like a thousand needles went through my chest
and now it’s bleeding slowly for me to die

Why
Why when I try to move my hands to touch the ground I can't
Touch the ground
Just to know it’s still there
Just to know I am still alive

Broken
I feel like a broken doll
Shatter into pieces
Pieces all over the floor
With no one there to put me back together
...no one...
Will fix me
No one wi

I am sitting in a room of people and yet i'm still alone. how is it possible that no one knows i'm there. i am invisble, never to be seen, never to have a friend, never to know the truth. How is it no one knows the pain i feel inside, i guess they never will never will. mabey one day they will try.

Suicide

This is a poem to no one
But to the world

Where is life and love,
When there is so much pain?
You know of what I speak.
The endless lines and rhymes
Scribbled by desperate souls
Such as you,
Such as I,
Seeking, searching, praying
For what else but freedom.
But that freedom you fool
Is the illusion.

Could you ever see why?
Why pain is the chain
That weighs our souls down.
Why freedom is nothing more
Than the walls of our prison.
You may break free of none
And live a simple life
But I no longer can.

And still, and still I'm trapped.
I've clawed at these tiled walls
All these many years.
Now my bloody fingerti

Tears mix with rain,
Fears mingle with pain.
The agony of being alone.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hurt and abused.
Feeling used.
The pain of being used as a doormat.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I bite, I flail,
But to no avail.
They won't leave me alone.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I wish I could kill them,
But instead I stare at the stem
Of a problem blooming.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sooner or later I will gain,
To wash away the pain
Of depression.

It's sadIt's sad,
How people lock themselves up,
In their own little world.

We lie to ourselves,
Say that everything's alright,
Everythings fine.

We wear the mask,
And act the part,
And say it's all part of the show.

We live in boxes,
See in darkness,
And speak in lies.

I't's our world
That we live in,
Why should it change?

losing.i.
my eyes are hollow.

happiness is hiding from me,
silence is stalking, suffocating.

how do i smile?

ii.
the roads are too long, too
slippery. it's too easy to get lost.

and i have no map.

could someone be my map?
please?

iii.
'you haven't lost
until you've given up,'
they remind me.

'don't give up.'

iv.
sometimes i wonder -

what if i already have given up?
have i lost, then?

v.
stop asking me to breathe, please.
stop asking me to live.
stop asking me to be happy.

i don't want to.

vi.
if God could see me now,
what would He think of me?

[it can't be good.]

vii.
sunshine hurts my eyes.

the only cage i'm in is one

A Suicide Note..

Dear Mum and Dad,

First of all you need to know that this is not your fault,
It's mine, for I locked my problem inside me like a vault,
Problems that I was never able to tell you,
Problems that I'm sick of dealing with. I'm through.

I'm sick of pretending that everything's alright,
I'm sick of having all these emotional demons to fight.
I can't take my depressing life anymore,
I realize I felt this way too often before.

I now know I'm not needed in this place,
Just another stupid teen, just another ugly face.
I can tell I'm secretly hated by everyone I know,
Though, when I'm around, they don't let their hatred show.

My life has n

Demon InsideShe lives in the shadows
Her own special place
So the sun will not mock her
With its happy face

She dwells in the darkness
So her soul wanders free
From the horrible truth
Of reality

She isolates herself
So that she may hide
The devil within her
The demon inside

DepressionIt's like she's everywhere you go
Outside you're fine inside you can't cope
Until you're bursting with dipair
and she's your only breath of air

It doesn't seem to matter how much you smile
Something will come along every once in a while
and make you frown like you've done before
until you can't take it anymore

You have to end this life right now
and it doesn't seem to matter how
You never think there's help out there
You're all alone and no one cares

The Surrendered ChildThe surrendered child
weeps
at his fate
not able to survive on his own
too scared to break free
he suffers in silence
in his eternal hell
once called a parent's Love

The broken child
shivers
in a dark corner in his room
cringing from the screaming voices in the hall
knowing they will come for him
they always do
no solace in the dark

The angrey child lashes out
in a futile attempt to find someone
anyone
who will notice his hurt
and take him out of this reality
but theyll turn away
raging silently in his head
he waits

The quite child holds it all in
the fear,the anger the hurt
for if he let them in

No Painyou see no mark upon my skin
you see no tear in my eye
you see no sign of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not cry myself
to sleep at night
or wake up screaming
because of haunted dreams
I must not pull the blade
across my skin
and hope that one day
it drives in deeper
I must not fear the darkness
or shudder at the thought of silence
I must not hide myself from
life and prying eyes that
judge your worth as a person
upon the shine of your smile

you hear no gasp escape my mouth
you hear no horror tale from my past
you hear no words of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not scream so loud it's silent
o

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ALONE

by ~Mushi-No-Iki, Jun 26, 2004, 9:32:22 PM
Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

No one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why sould we involve them; why should it show.

You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.

The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.

ALONEby ~Mushi-No-Iki

Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

©2004-2013 ~Mushi-No-Iki

a poem when i felt obviously alone lol

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~anime96326 May 10, 2013

i was in a good mood till i read this now i am alone other than that amazing

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~XeniaDuck Apr 24, 2013 New member

Just awesome

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~TheZombieGir Apr 21, 2013 New member

Love this

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~CrAzZyYy Apr 20, 2013

GreaT Poem (Y)

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~sweetsparkles86 Mar 17, 2013 New member

:tribute Love it

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~ObsidianGladiator Feb 25, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

*you're

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~soleatrcharchar123 Feb 23, 2013

i love how you express your emotions though poems

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~serenityninja Feb 19, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

very well written

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~emodevilchild Feb 6, 2013

i love it

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